silent tears

whenever i see you..hear you or feel you around..
(which is the case at every vision and sound)
admire your pic which i clicked
through that special angle of mine

i cannot stop these naughty ones ..
just popping up here or there ..
one or two or more which follow
.. bringing out that part of me
all that i had hidden..
all my pain

but then as they bid a farewell
with my tender wiping away ..
they take away all the sorrow ..
leaving me in a thoughtful mode..

Are you worth for shedding
and my parting away with my precious
silent tears..??

Loser

Well!
i know dat my posts have really cryptic. but thats the way I am ..

well not really… I have alwayz been an open-hearted kiddo sharing my joys and spreading happiness.. thus named bubbly by many..:)

sum names like bak bak chintu motu.. etc have been mine just coz of my jolly nature and the power of turning the atmosphere bright..

But… the world wants a change in me.. in order to keep up its old axiom:” Change is the law of nature”.

I being a person religiously believing in the goodness of the world and events.. am now forced to if not change my perception but think about changing it..

The people i thought were too close to me to go away by even an inch… have actually left me .. ( not all though..)

but there are still “lots of good people around” and those who are near wanna a change in me for my betterment ..

I am enlightened that the materialistic value of anything is more than me for someone i thought i valued the most…!

I really dint wanna put this huge amount of useless crap on the net.. but since this is a way the people who have been soo close to my heart dat even their little movement could have pained me .. might visit it sum day and kno where they have actually pained ..

newaz life goes its way..

chahe ho nahi kaju life mein fir bhi kajukatli is the best..
arey yaar materialism ka jamana hai aur hum hain engineers we can manufacture synthetic kajus..

parr there lies the question still shud I change..
Am I a loser being myself…???

On a serious note…

well last day had been a mixture of tough and easy tasks and things both on emotional and professional front..

wasnt well ( headache ) and thus this says it all.. m kinda  person who always wants a lot of care and concern ..

no work done hence and just missing mom…

roomie sumtymes (epecially wen m not well ) says sumthing which makes me cry.. ..

but then she is still very nice .. we tend to forget the good others have done to us  when we are sad because of them or are angry..

A normal human behaviour..

and then  more was to came when i was told “dnd”.. dats it.. it lead to  my ultimate giveup and i went to sleep..

the day start was fyn for today.. running me.. making ED.. i dint hate it but it wasnt my favourite too…

I love the epoxy resin which takes 24 hours to dry up..

that left me with lots of tym to sleeep and recover.. now feeling a lot lot better..

met a person and even talked to him .. whom i thot was a snob!!!  ..:P. hes not that bad!!

well it might turn out that i was much snobber than him..

“let bygone be bygone” this principle is great isnt it…:)

well now got to cover up … whatever suffered due to my sweet headache ..

and get on to work!!!!

I AM NOT A WORKOHOLIC…. yet there are tymes i like it..

Kajukatli

Hey all here !!
its really been a long tym i too wanted to create a blog of my own and here is my own space to share wat i feel about the wrld and all..
but it wasnt soooooooo easy as it appers .. try out sign up and u will kno!!.. i wanted my blogname to be moonlight and it said ” the name is not available…” . then another serene, bubbly moonlite etc too were not going to wrk for me..
left with like no options at this point of hour wen my brain is most active yet m getting no results… frustated at the msg.. and the ppl who took away “the names i wanted..:P”… was wondering .. even bubbly bubbly wasnt wrking entered bacchi once but it doesnt suit me..;).. m pretty old for dat.. so . this “Kajukatli” clicked and yessss it was for me…:)
my heartiest warm wishes to all the kajukatli fans..:)
i love it newaz.. and this has left me in laughter coz lately i had named my very close fren by this name due to his one- dimensionality..
i hope he wont mind his name being in use by me for my blog..:)

so wish me luk ppl!!!